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    Monday, January 3rd, 2011
    5:50 pm
    @@@@@She stood up and picked the pine needles
    @@@@@She stood up and picked the pine
    needles off her frock, out of her hairThe
    muddy yellow Flint River ran slowly and deeply below the ledge that
    held the pine woodsScarlett looked down and threw in the handful of
    pine needlesThey swirled away in the current
    "Moving on," she murmuredDon't look back, what's
    done is done She squinted up at the bright skyA line of
    brilliant white clouds was rushing across itThey looked full of
    windIt's going to get colder, she thought automaticallyI'd better
    find something warm to wear this afternoon at the burial
    She turned toward homeThe sloping pasture looked steeper than she
    rememberedShe had to get back to the house and tidy
    herselfShe owed it to Mammy to look neatMammy had always
    fussed
    when she looked messyScarlett swayed on her feetShe must have
    been as tired as this sometime before in her life, but she couldn't
    rememberShe was too tired to rememberI'm tired of funerals, I'm
    tired of death, I'm tired of my life falling away, a piece at a time,
    and leaving me all aloneThe graveyard at Tara was not very large
    Mammy's grave looked big, ever so much bigger than Melly's, Scarlett
    thought disjointedly, but Mammy had shrivelled up so that she
    probably
    wasn't any bigger at allShe didn't need such a big graveThe wind
    had a bite in it, for all that the sky was so blue and the sun so
    brightYellowed leaves skittered across the burial ground, blown by
    the wi
    Sunday, January 2nd, 2011
    5:55 pm
    @@@@@What’s all this got to do with now, tonight
    @@@@@What’s all this got to do with now, tonight your plan?”
    “It provides us with a way to force the Jackal to come out after me, to meet with me
    “How?”
    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    165
    “By my wandering around the grounds very much in the open where he or one of his scouts will
    see me and hear me
    “Why would that force him to come out after you?”
    “Because I will not be with the nurse he had assigned to meI will be with someone else,
    unknown to him, someone who would have no reason at all to kill me
    Again Bourne looked at the old Frenchman in silence“Bait,” he said finally
    “A lure so provocative it will drive him into a frenzy until he has it in his possession—has me in
    his grip so he can question meYou see, I’m vital to him—more specifically, my death is vital—
    and everything is timing to himhis diction, how is it said?”
    “His byword, his method of operation, I suppose
    “It is how he has survived, how he has made the most of each kill, each over the years adding to
    his reputation as the assassin suprêmeUntil a man named Jason Bourne came out of the Far East
    he has never been the same sinceBut you know all that—”
    “I don’t care about all that,” interrupted Jason
    “After I’m gone he can reveal who Jean Pierre Fontaine, the hero of France, really wasAn
    impostor, his impostor, his creation, the instrument of death who was the snare for Jason Bourne
    What a triumph for him! But he cannot do that until I’m deadQuite simply, it would be too
    inconvenientI know too much, too many of my colleagues in the gutters of ParisNo, I must be
    dead before he has his triumph
    “Then he’ll kill you when he sees you
    “Not until he has his answers, monsieurWhere is his killer nurse? What has happened to her?
    Did Le Caméléon find her, turn her, do away with her? Have the British authorities got her? Is she
    on her way to London and MI-Six with all their chemicals, to be turned over at last to Interpol? So
    many questionsNo, he will not kill me until he learns what he must lear
    Saturday, January 1st, 2011
    5:58 pm
    @@@@@'" "You choked me," she said in a voice I
    @@@@@'"
    "You choked me," she said in a voice I could
    barely hear
    I stopped doing crunches and gaped at herThe
    clock-shop started up in my head; bang-a-gong, get
    it on"What are you saying, I choked you? I never
    choked you!"
    18
    "I know you don't remember, but you didAnd
    you're not the sameSave the New Age bullshit for the" I knew the word and I
    could see the man it stood for, but it wouldn't
    come"For that bald fuck you see in his office
    "My therapist," she said, and of course that made
    me angrier: she had the word and I didn'tBecause
    her brain hadn't been shaken like Jell-O
    "You want a divorce, you can have a divorceThrow
    it all away, why not? Only go do the alligator
    somewhere else
    She went up the stairs and closed the door without
    looking backAnd it wasn't until she was gone
    that I realized I'd meant to say crocodile tears
    Go cry your crocodile tears somewhere elseClose enough for rock and rollThat's
    what Wireman says
    And I was the one who ended up getting out
    iii
    Except for Pam, I never had a partner in my other
    lifeEdgar Freemantle's Four Rules for Success
    19
    (feel free to take notes) were: never borrow more
    than your IQ times a hundred, never borrow from a
    man who calls you by your first name on first
    acquaintance, never take a drink while the sun's
    still up, and never take a partner you wouldn't be
    willing to embrace naked on a waterbed
    I did have an accountant I trusted, however, and
    it was Tom Riley who helped me move the few things
    I needed from Mendota Heights to our smaller place
    on Lake PhalenTom, a sad two-time loser in the
    marriage game, worried at me all the way out"You
    don't give up the house in a situation like this,"
    he said"Not unless the judge kicks you outIt's
    like giving up home field advantage in a playoff
    ga
    Friday, December 31st, 2010
    5:58 pm
    @@@@@That was always really obviousI guess I
    @@@@@That was always
    really obviousI guess I should have seen that you loved Jared, tooMaybe I didn't want toYou came here for the two of themYou love them both, the same way Melanie
    didAnd Jared…”
    He was looking away, staring at the wall over meI had to look away, tooI stared at the
    sunlight where it touched the red door
    “How much of that is Melanie?” he wanted to knowDoes it matter?”
    I could barely hear his answer Without looking at me or seeming to
    notice what he was doing, Ian took my hand again
    It was very quiet for a minuteEven Melanie was still
    Then, as though a switch had been flipped, Ian was his normal self again
    “Time is on my side,” he said, grinning“We've got the rest of our lives in hereOne day you'll
    wonder what you ever saw in Jared
    I laughed with him, happy he was joking again
    “Wanda? Wanda, can I come in?”
    Jamie's voice started from down the hall and, accompanied by the sound of his jogging steps,
    ended right outside the door
    I already had my hand held out to him before he shrugged the door asideI hadn't seen him
    nearly enough latelyUnconscious or crippled, I hadn't been free to seek him out
    “Hey, Wanda! Hey, Ian!” Jamie was all grins, his messy hair bouncing when he movedHe
    headed for my reaching hand, but Ian was in his waySo he settled for sitting on the edge of my
    mattress and resting his hand on my foot
    Thursday, December 30th, 2010
    5:50 pm
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    Cartier Watches Tortue,gucci fashion,hermes purse,Gucci Clutches,hermes bag@@@@@He whispered desperately several times, "I wasn't sleeping, I was only closing my eyes to fool the Japs, I was ready, I swear I was ready
    Martinez whimpered, "I give back the teeth, I promise I give back the teeth
    Wyman dreamed he was letting go of the antitank gun, and said, "It really wasn't my fault He felt guilt, and then was awake in the Cartier Watches Tortue next instant, and had forgotten everything
    Red lay on his stomach, and thought it was the soldier with the bayonet who was shooting at him"Come on, you sonofabitch, you sonofabitch," he kept muttering
    Gallager thought, They're out to get ME
    And Croft felt a paralyzing instant of fear while the Japanese charged across the river and he sat tied gucci fashion hand and foot by his machine gunThe second burst of fire loosed his bonds, and he roared, "COME AND GET ME!" The sweat formed on his face, and then he was crawling along the ground toward Wilson's gun"RECON, UP, UP ON THE LINE!" he bellowedHe was still uncertain whether they were on the river or not
    Wilson fired again, and Croft realized that he hermes purse was shooting and not the JapaneseIn the next instant he understood that they were far from the river, and this was the 2nd Battalion bivouacHe dropped into the hole beside Wilson and jerked his arm"What're you firing at?" It had taken until now for Croft to awaken completely
    "Ah got it," Wilson said"Ah knocked down the sonofabitch
    "What?" Gucci Clutches Croft whisperedAh couldn' see through itWas gettin' me all in a lather
    The other men in recon were crawling cautiously toward them"You didn't hear any Japs?" Croft said
    "Hell, no," Wilson said"Ah wouldn' use a machine gun if Ah saw a Jap, Ah'd use a rifleDon' want me to spot the position for one lousy Jap, do ya?"
    Croft was repressing a violent hermes bag ra
    Wednesday, December 29th, 2010
    5:50 pm
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    Clayton CountyShe tried to walk away, but she was hemmed in by
    people behind her who'd also been attracted by the laughter in the
    group around Bill Weller"I got the picture after a while," Weller
    went on"They just didn't put much trust in paperNor nothing else
    that I tried, neitherI sent out medicine shows and lightning rods
    and all the sure-fire money-makers, but none of them so much as
    struck
    a sparkI tell you, boys, it hurt my pride He made a necklace chanel lugubrious
    face, then grinned widely, showing three large gold molars"I don't
    have to tell you that me and Lula wasn't exactly going to go wanting if
    I didn't come up with somethingIn the good, fat days when the
    Republicans had Georgia in hand, I piled up enough from those
    railroad
    contracts the boys voted me so that we could have lived high on the
    hog
    even if I'd been fool enough to actually go out and build the
    railroadsBut I like to keep my hand in, and Lula was starting to
    fret because I was around chanel knockoff the house too much, not having any
    business
    to tend to
    Then-glory be-along come the Panic, and all the Rebs grabbed their
    savings out of the banks and put the money in their mattresses
    Every house-even the shacks-was a golden opportunity I just couldn't
    let pass me by
    "Stop your gassing, Bill, what did you come up with? I'm getting
    thirsty waiting for you to finish patting yourself on the back and get
    to the point Amos Bart punctuated his impatience with a practiced
    spit that fell short of Gucci Indy Bag its targeted spittoonScarlett was feeling
    impatient, tooImpatient to get away"Keep your shirt on, Amos,
    I'm
    coming to itWhat was the way to get in those mattresses? I ain't
    the revival-preacher kind, I like to sit behind my desk and let my
    employ-ees do the hustlingThat's just what I was doing, sitting in
    my leather swivel chair, when I looked out my window and saw a
    funeral
    going byIt was like lightning strikingThere ain't a roof in
    Georgia that don't have some dearly departed once lived rolex ladies watch under it'
    Scarlett stared with horror at Bill Weller as he described the fraud
    that was adding to hisriches"The mothers and widows are the
    easiest,
    and there's more of them than anything elseThey don't blink an eye
    when my boys tell them that the Confederate Veterans are putting up
    monuments on all the battlefields, and they empty out those
    mattresses
    quicker than you can say 'Abe Lincoln' to pay for their boy's name to
    be carved in the marble It was worse than Scarlett could chanel vintage have
    imagine
    Monday, December 27th, 2010
    5:54 pm
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    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    201
    “He abandoned us, Alex
    Prefontaine walked through the terminal at Boston’s Logan Airport to the crowded platform and
    raised his hand to hail a cabBut after looking around, he lowered his hand and stood in line; things
    had changed in thirty yearsEverything, including airports, had become cafeterias; one stood in line
    for pasha cartier a plate of third-rate mulligan stew, as well as for a taxi
    “The Ritz-Carlton,” said the judge to the driver
    “You h’ain’d got no luggage?” asked the man“Nudding but d’liddle bag?”
    “No, I do not,” replied Prefontaine and, unable to resist a follow-up added, “I keep wardrobes
    wherever I go
    “Tutti-fruitee,” said the driver, removing an outsized, wide-toothed comb from balenciaga motorcycle his hair as he
    swung out into the traffic
    “You have a reservation, sir?” asked the tuxedoed clerk behind the counter at the Ritz
    “I trust one of my law clerks made it for meThe name’s Scofield, Justice William Scofield of
    the Supreme CourtI’d hate to think that the Ritz had lost a reservation, especially these days when
    everyone’s screaming for consumer protection? omega moon watch I’m sure it’s here somewhere, sir
    “I specifically requested Suite Three-C, I’m sure it’s in your computerit’s booked—”
    “What?”
    “No, no, I’m wrong, MrThey haven’t arrived I mean it’s an error they’re in
    another suite The clerk pounded his bell with ferocity“Bellboy, bellboy!”
    “No need for that, young fella, I travel lightJust give me the key and point me in the rolex submariner replica right
    direction
    “Yes, sir!”
    “I trust you’ve got a few bottles of decent whisky up there, as usual?”
    “If they’re not, they will be, MrAny particular brands?”
    “Good rye, good bourbon and good brandyThe white stuff is for sissies, right?”
    “Right, sirRight away, sir!”
    Twenty minutes later, his face washed and a drink in his hand, Prefontaine picked up the phone
    and dialed dior women
    Sunday, December 26th, 2010
    5:58 pm
    @@@@@ She gave a small and doubtful shrugAre you
    @@@@@
    She gave a small and doubtful shrugAre you ready to go back? I
    could scramble us some eggsEven throw in some
    peppers and mushrooms
    "I haven't seen you off your crutch for so long
    since the accident
    "I hope to be walking a quarter-mile south along
    the beach by the middle of January"A quarter of a mile and back?"
    147
    I shook my headJust a quarter of a mile
    I plan to glide back I extended my arms to
    demonstrate
    She snorted, started toward the house again, then
    paused as a point of light heliographed in our
    direction from the southThe
    two specks were down there
    "People," Ilse said, shading her eyesMy only neighbors, right nowAt
    least, I think so
    "Have you met them?"
    "NopeAll I know is that it's a man and a woman
    in a wheelchairI think she has her breakfast
    down by the water most daysI think the tray is
    the glinty thing
    "You should get yourself a golf cartThen you
    could buzz down and say hi
    "Eventually I'll walk down and say hi," I said
    "No golf cart for the kidKamen said to set
    goals, and I'm setting em
    "You didn't need a shrink to tell you about
    setting goals, Daddy," she said, still peering
    south"Which house do they belong to? The big one
    that looks like a rancho in a western movie?"
    148
    "I'm pretty sure, ye
    Saturday, December 25th, 2010
    5:58 pm
    @@@@@You're one of us, IanDid you hear what she
    @@@@@You're one of
    us, IanDid you hear what she said in there? She was screamingmonstersThat's
    how she sees us nowShe doesn't want your comfort
    They didn't speak againA minute passed, and I heard one set of slow footsteps moving around
    the edge of the roomEventually, the light swept across me, turning my lids red again
    I huddled myself more tightly together, expecting him to touch me
    There was a quiet sigh, and then the sound of him sitting on the stone, not as close beside me
    as I would have expected
    With a click, the light disappeared
    I waited in the silence for a long time for him to speak, but he was just as silent as I was
    Finally, I stopped waiting and returned to my mourningIan did not interruptI sat in the
    blackness of the big hole in the ground and grieved for lost souls with a human at my side
    CHAPTER 41
    Vanished
    Ian sat with me for three days in the darkness
    He left for only a few short minutes at a time, to get us food and waterAt first, Ian ate, though
    I did notThen, as he realized that it wasn't a loss of appetite that left my tray full, he stopped
    eating, too
    I used his brief absences to deal with the physical needs that I could not ignore, thankful for the
    proximity of the odorous streamAs my fast lengthened, those needs vanished
    I couldn't keep from sleeping, but I did not make myself comfortableThe first day, I woke to
    find my head and shoulders cradled on his lapI recoiled from him, shuddering so violently that
    he did not repeat the gestureAfter that, I slumped against the stones where I was, and when I
    woke, I would curl back up into my silent ball at once
    “Please,” Ian whispered on the third day–at least I thought it was the third day; there was no
    way to be sure of the passing time in this dark, silent p
    Friday, December 24th, 2010
    5:50 pm
    @@@@@He did a somersault underwater and then
    @@@@@He did a somersault underwater and then struck out with a steady stroke parallel to the shoreConn was probably still beating his gums, still elaborating the myth that had become the man

    "Wakara, what does umareru mean?" Dove asked
    Lieutenant Wakara extended his slim legs, and wiggled his toes thoughtfully"Why, it means, 'to be born,' I think
    Dove squinted along the beach, and watched Hearn swimming for a moment"Oh, sure, umareru -- to be bornUmashi masu, u umashoThose are the basic verb forms, aren't they? I remember that He turned to Conn and said, "I don't know what I'd do without WakaraIt takes a Jap to figure out the damn language And he clapped Wakara on the back, and added, "Hey, Tom, am I right?"
    Wakara nodded slowlyHe was a short thin man with a quiet sensitive face, rather dull eyes, and a thin neat mustache"Good old Wakara," Dove saidWakara continued to look at his legsAbout a week before, he had overheard Dove saying to some officer, "You know our Jap translators are overratedI do all the work in our unit, of course I'm in charge, but Wakara isn't much help at allI'm always having to correct his translations
    Now Dove was massaging his bony chest with a towel he had brought along"Feels wonderful to get a sweat up in the sun," he muttered, and then turned to Wakara again"I should have known that word, you know it's that diary we picked off that Jap major's corpse, fascinating document, did you have a look at it?"
    "Not yet
    "Oh, well, it's wonderfulNo military information, but the guy was a crackpotThe Japs are weird, Wakara
    "They're dopes," Wakara said shortl
    Thursday, December 23rd, 2010
    5:50 pm
    @@@@@Sally Brewton was a tiny woman in her
    @@@@@Sally Brewton was a tiny woman in her fortiesShe was
    shaped like a thin, active young boy, and her face did, in fact,
    greatly resemble a monkey'sShe wasn't in the least upset by
    Scarlett's rude stareSally was accustomed to the reaction; her
    remarkable ugliness-to which she had adapted long, long ago-and her
    unconventional behavior often astonished people who were strangers
    to
    herShe walked over to Scarlett now, her skirts trailing behind her
    like a brown riverButler, you must think us as mad as
    March haresThe truth is-boring though it may be-that there's a
    perfectly rational explanation for our-shall we say?-dramatic
    arrival
    I am the only surviving carriage possessor in town and I find it
    impossible to keep a coachmanThey object to ferrying my
    dispossessed
    friends, and I insist on itSo I've given up hiring men who are going
    to quit almost at onceAnd-if my husband is otherwise occupied-I do
    the driving myself She put her small hand on Scarlett's arm and
    looked up into her face"Now I ask you, doesn't that make perfectly
    good sense?" Scarlett found her voice and said, "Yes
    "Sally, you mustn't trap poor Scarlett like that," said Eleanor
    Butler
    "What else could she say? Tell her the Sally shrugged, then grinned
    "I suppose your mother-in-law is referring to my bellsThe fact is that I am an appallingly bad driverSo
    whenever I take the carriage out, I'm required by my humanitarian
    husband to bedeck it in bells, as advance warning to people to get out
    of my way
    "Rather like a leper," offered Mrs"I shall ignore that,"
    Sally said with an air of injured dignityShe smiled at Scarlett, a
    smile of such genuine good will that Scarlett felt warmed by it"I do
    hope," she said, "that you'll call on me whenever you need the
    brougham, despite what you've seenBrewton, you're very kindThe fact is, I adore careening through the streets,
    scattering scallywags and carpetbaggers to the four winds
    But I'm monopolizing you
    Wednesday, December 22nd, 2010
    6:03 pm
    @@@@@And, Johnny, I don’t want her to know a
    @@@@@And, Johnny, I don’t want her to know
    a thing about any of this, do you understand me? When she reaches you, and she will, just tell her
    you’re settled in and everything’s okay, nothing about the move or Carlos
    “Everything is all right, isn’t it? How are the kids—how’s Jamie taking everything?”
    “You may resent this, but he’s having a grand time, and MrsCooper won’t even let me touch
    Alison
    “I don’t resent either piece of informationWhat about you? Any progress?”
    “I’ll be in touch,” said Bourne, hanging up and turning to Alex“It doesn’t make sense, and
    Carlos always makes sense if you look hard enoughHe leaves me a warning that drives me crazy
    with fear, but he has no means of carrying out his threatWhat do you make of it?”
    “The sense is in driving you crazy,” replied Conklin“The Jackal’s not going to take on an
    installation like Tannenbaum’s sterile house long-distanceThat message was meant to panic you
    and it didHe wants to throw you off so you’ll make mistakesHe wants the controls in his hands
    “It’s another reason for Marie to fly back to the States as soon as possibleI want
    her inside a fortress, not having lunch out in the open in Barbizon
    “I’m more sympathetic to that view than I was last night Alex was interrupted by the sound of
    the door openingKrupkin walked into the room carrying several computer printouts
    “The number you gave me is disconnected,” he said, a slight hesitancy in his voice
    “Who was it connected to?” asked Jason
    “You will not like this any more than I do, and I’d lie to you if I could invent a plausible
    alternate, but I cannot and I undoubtedly should notAs of five days ago it was transferred from
    an obviously false organization to the name of Webb
    Conklin and Bourne stared in silence at the Soviet intelligence officer, but in that silence were
    the unheard static cracks of high-voltage electricity“Why are you so certain we won’t like the
    information?” asked Alex quietly
    “My fine old enemy,” began Krupkin, his gentle voice no louder than Conklin’s
    Bourne came out of that café of horror with the brown paper clasped in his hand, he was hysteri
    Sunday, December 19th, 2010
    5:57 pm
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    Wireman said, "I wish I understood better why you
    feel like you have to keep fooling with this,
    Edgar
    "Because it's not overFor
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    with her father and then on her ownShe had her
    charities, she had black quilted bag her friends, she played tennis,
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    "You really think something's been making all this
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    "It's what you believe," I saidIt isn't what I want to believe
    That there's something with a reach so long
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    knows who or what else
    "I don't like it either," I said, but that was far
    from the truthThe truth was I hated it"I don't
    like the idea that something may have actually
    reached out and killed Elizabeth - maybe scared
    her to death - just to shut her up
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    "And then?"
    "It dependsAlmost certainly a trip to the south
    end of the KeyThere's unfinished business
    there
    Jack put down his tea-glass"What unfinished
    business?"
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    Saturday, December 18th, 2010
    5:56 pm
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    This is an example of habits controlling behaviorI remember asking my rich dad about the habits of the richInstead of answering me outright, he wanted me to learn through example, as usual
    "When does your dad pay his bills?" rich dad asked
    "The first of the month," I said
    "Does he have anything left over?" he asked
    "Very little," I said
    "That's the main reason he struggles," said rich dad
    "Your dad pays everyone else firstHe pays himself last, but only if he has anything left over
    "Which he usually doesn't," I said"But he has to pay his bills, doesn't he? You're saying he shouldn't pay his bills?"
    "Of course not," said rich dad "I firmly believe in paying my bills on timeI just pay myself first Before I pay even the government
    "But what happens if you don't have enough money?" I asked"What do you do then?"
    "The same," said rich dad "I still pay myself firstEven if I'm short of moneyMy asset column is far more important to me than the government "Don't they come after you?"
    "Yes, if you don't pay," said rich dad "Look, I did not say not to payI just said I pay myself first, even if I'm short of money "How do you do that'"
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    Friday, December 17th, 2010
    5:55 pm
    @@@@@A deep lassitude had filled his body; he had
    @@@@@A deep lassitude had filled his body; he had no desire to move on"Come on, men, let's go," he bawledHe saw Ridges lying asleep a few feet away and it enraged him"Come on, Ridges, will you quit dickin'-off?"
    Ridges woke up slowly, almost leisurely"Jus' restin', that's all," he complained mildly"If a man wants to get some rest He trailed it off, hooked on his belt and walked over to the litter
    They moved on again, but the rest period had been bad for themThey had lost the urgency, the tension, that had driven them forward when everything else was goneNow after marching a few hundred yards they were almost as tired as they had been when they halted, and the heat of the sun made them dizzy and weakWilson began to moan quite steadily
    This tormented themTheir bodies felt powerless and clumsy; each time he groaned they winced with guilt and empathy, and the torments of his wound seemed to pass through the handles of the stretcher up into their armsThey bickered constantly for the first half mile while they still had wind to speakEverything they did grated on everybody else, and they snapped at each other continually
    "Dammit, Goldstein, why don't you watch it?" Stanley would shout after a sudden jar
    "Why don't you men quit the fussin' and do some work?" Ridges would mutter
    "Aaah, blow it out," Stanley would shout
    And Brown would interfere"Stanley, you're talkin' too damn muchWhy'n't you do some goddam work?"
    They struggled on, enraged at each otherWilson began to babble again, and they listened to him dully"Men, why don' you all lea' me, a man who cain't hold up his end ain't worth a goddamAh'm jus' holdin' you backJus' lea' me, men, that's all Ah
    Saturday, December 11th, 2010
    6:26 pm
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    Friday, December 10th, 2010
    6:02 pm
    @@@@@The look that said,I'm trying to be
    @@@@@The
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    working too hard at keeping a casual paceTrying desperately to blend in
    No body snatcher would feel that need
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    Trying to find her doesn't even seem like a choice, reallyIf there is a chance there are more
    humans out there, we have to locate them
    And I have to go aloneSharon will run from anyone but me–well, she will run from me, too,
    but maybe she will pause long enough for me to explainI am sure I know her secret place
    “And you?” I ask him in a thick voiceI'm not sure I can physically bear this looming goodbye
    “Will you be safe?”
    “Neither heaven nor hell can keep me apart from you, Melanie
    Without giving me a chance to catch my breath or wipe away the fresh tears, she threw another
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    in this moment he's a child, shaking, cowering almostJared is loading the carJamie would not
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    Tuesday, December 7th, 2010
    5:59 pm
    @@@@@"Ah, God," he whispered It was indeed a
    @@@@@"Ah, God," he whispered
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    ground had shifted, a fissure had opened -
    probably at the very bottom - and the water inside
    had leaked outWhat we saw in the flashlight's
    beam was a damp, moss-lined gullet eight or ten
    feet deep and about five feet in diameterLying
    at the bottom, entwined in an embrace that had
    lasted eighty years, were two skeletons dressed in
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    Whitish toads - small boys - hopped on the bones
    A harpoon lay beside one skeletonThe tip of the
    second harpoon was still buried in Nan Melda's
    yellowing spine
    The light began to swayBecause the young man
    holding it was swaying
    "Don't you faint on us, Jack!" I said sharply
    "That's an order!"
    "I'm okay, boss But his eyes were huge, glassy,
    and behind the flashlight - still not quite steady
    in his hand - his face was parchment whiteShine it down there again
    It was one of the Table Whiskey kegs, now little
    more than a hump under a heavy shag of mossOne
    of those white toads was crouched on itIt looked
    up at me, lids nictitating malevolently
    Wireman glanced at his watchI'm
    thinking maybe fifteen minutes before sundown
    Could be a little more, could be less?"
    "So Jack puts the ladder into the hole, and down I
    goyou have just one arm
    "She took my daughterYou know
    this is my job Wireman looked at Jac
    Monday, December 6th, 2010
    6:19 pm
    @@@@@Rushworth will be very angryIt will be a
    @@@@@Rushworth will be very angryIt will be a bitter
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    ill flavour, and then be swallowed and forgotten; for I am not such
    a coxcomb as to suppose her feelings more lasting than other
    women’s, though I was the object of themYes, Mary, my Fanny
    will feel a difference indeed: a daily, hourly difference, in the
    behaviour of every being who approaches her; and it will be the
    completion of my happiness to know that I am the doer of it, that I
    am the person to give the consequence so justly her dueNow she is
    dependent, helpless, friendless, neglected, forgotten
    “Nay, Henry, not by all; not forgotten by all; not friendless or
    forgottenHer cousin Edmund never forgets her
    “Edmund! True, I believe he is, generally speaking, kind to her,
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    and so is Sir Thomas in his way; but it is the way of a rich, superior,
    long-worded, arbitrary uncleWhat can Sir Thomas and Edmund
    together do, what do they do for her happiness, comfort, honour,
    and dignity in the world, to what I shall do?”
    260
    Mansfield Park
    CHAPTER XXXI
    HENRY CRAWFORD was at Mansfield Park again the next morning,
    and at an earlier hour than common visiting warrantsThe two
    ladies were together in the breakfast-room, and, fortunately for him,
    Lady Bertram was on the very point of quitting it as he enteredShe
    was almost at the door, and not chusing by any means to take so
    much trouble in vain, she still went on, after a civil reception, a
    short sentence about being waited for, and a “Let Sir Thomas know”
    to the servant
    Henry, overjoyed to have her go, bowed and watched her off, and
    without losing another moment, turned instantly to Fanny, and,
    taking out some letters, said, with a most animated look, “I must
    acknowledge myself infinitely obliged to any creature who gives me
    such an opportunity of seeing you alone: I have been wishing it
    more than you can have any ideaKnowing as I do what your feelings
    as a sister are, I could hardly have borne that any one in the
    house should share with you in the first knowledge of the news I
    now bringYour brother is a lieutenantI have the
    infinite satisfaction of congratulating you on your brother’s promotion
    Here are the letters which announce it, this moment come to
    handYou will, perhaps, like to see them
    Fanny could not speak, but he did not want her to speakTo see
    the expression of her eyes, the change of her complexion, the progress
    of her feelings, their doubt, confusion, and felicity, was enough
    She took the letters as he gave themThe first was from the Admiral
    to inform his nephew, in a few words, of his having succeeded in
    the object he had undertaken, the promotion of young Price, and
    enclosing two more, one from the Secretary of the First Lord to a
    friend, whom the Admiral had set to work in the business, the other
    from that friend to himself, by which it appeared that his lordship
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    had the very great happiness of attending to the recommendation
    of Sir Charles; that Sir Charles was much delighted in having such
    an opportunity of proving his regard for Admiral Crawford, and
    that the circumstance of MrWilliam Price’s commission as Second
    Lieutenant of HSloop Thrush being made out was spreading
    general joy through a wide circle of great people
    While her hand was trembling under these letters, her eye running
    from one to the other, and her heart swelling with emotion,
    Crawford thus continued, with unfeigned eagerness, to express his
    interest in the event—
    “I will not talk of my own happiness,” said he, “great as it is, for I
    think only of yoursCompared with you, who has a right to be
    happy? I have almost grudged myself my own prior knowledge of
    what you ought to have known before all the worldI have not lost
    a moment, however
    Saturday, December 4th, 2010
    5:52 pm
    @@@@@He stood up heavily, and began to fit the
    @@@@@He stood up heavily, and began to fit the litter straps over his shouldersGoldstein hesitated, and then followed himWhen they were ready, they staggered out onto the flat shallow falls of the river and began moving downstream
    They did not think there was anything odd about moving this way with a dead manThey were too accustomed to picking him up at the end of each halt; the only thing they understood was that they must carry himEven more, neither of them really believed he was deadThey knew it but they did not believe itIf he had shouted for water they would not have been surprised
    They even talked about what they would do with himIn one of the breaks Ridges said, "When we git him back, we'll give him a Christian burial 'cause he repented And even so they talked without feeling the wordsGoldstein did not want to realize Wilson was dead; he held his mind away from the knowledge rigidly, thinking of nothing, merely sloshing forward through the shallow water upstream, his shoes sliding on the flat smooth rocksThere was something he could not face once he understood
    And Ridges was bewildered tooHe was not convinced Wilson had begged for forgiveness; it was all jumbled in his mind, and he fastened on the thought that if he could get Wilson back, get him buried decently, the conversion would takeAnd more, both of them felt a natural frustration with having carried him this far only to dieThey wanted to complete their odyssey with success
    Very slowly now, more slowly than they had moved at any time, they shambled through the water, the litter swaying between themOverhead the trees and foliage met; as before, the river wound a tunnel through the jungleTheir heads drooped, their legs moved stiffly as if afraid of collapsing if they were hinged at the kneeNow when they rested they would flop in the shallow water, leaving Wilson half submerged while they sprawled beside the litter
    They were almost unconsciousTheir feet blundered along the floor of the stream, crunching on the river pebblesThe water flowing past their heels was chill, but they hardly felt itIn the dim light of the jungle aisle they stumbled onward, following the current du
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